Friday, September 18, 2009

Miscellaneous Morgellons ramblings

I may have had it for years. I don't know if the acne I've had really ever was acne or Morgellon's lesions on my face. If that is the case I've had it since I was in my late teens and I am 34 now. Maybe I've gone into remission a few times over the years but I've had issues with weight and fatigue since my teens and was many times considered lazy...I mean how could a young kid be tired all the time, or maybe back then it was thyroid. 

I noticed the black specs around the time when my thyroid decided to stop working properly because my face was so dry (never happened before!) and I used Eucerin Aquafor ointment on it (which I could never do before because of the acne) and I constantly noticed black specks etc. and chalked it off as nothing. Because of the scars (small craters and large pores) on my face I always use low lighting when doing my makeup, or anytime I have to look at it because if I used full lighting and saw it for what was is I would never leave the house. I never imagined the stuff was coming out of my skin, I thought maybe it was dust floating through the air that was sticking to the ointment. It wasn't until after two appointments to consider laser on my scarred face and was told my acne was too severe and I would have to do accutane again that I searched the net for alternatives. As someone who wants to have another child in the next year or so I absolutely wasn't touching Accutane! I found something on Demodex which would have explained the crawling itching burning sensations on my face, my newly diagnosed rosacea and my constant loss of eyelashes!  I read that tea tree oil would get rid of that. I put tea tree oil on my skin and little tiny almost hard to see black things emerged from my face and this time because I was watching in bright light I realized they were coming from my skin. I thought "whoa no wonder my face looks like this...with all of these demodex my face could never clear up.". It wasn't until I looked under a microscope that I realized something was really wrong... to my horror they were small tiny microscopic fibers.

Many of the symptoms mimic hypothyroid so I'd been chalking them off to that since I had been diagnosed as hypothyroid and was being treated with synthroid. Lots of weird things accompanied my thyroid problems. I've had itching, biting and crawling sensations and chalked it off to that as well because the lesions were only on my face and that to me was acne, I mean afterall if you feel like you are being bitten and there is nothing there and no bug bite it must be something with nerves...right (not!). With my thyroid problems came twitching under the skin, like muscle spasms so I assumed it was causing these other phantom symptoms.